I was contacted by Ulla Kelly via one of the comments boxes here to go along and Do The Interview which I duly did. The end result of which can be found here.
Reading and re-reading what I wrote I feel an immense pride, not just within myself for finally being honest publicly about who I am, but in being gay.
It’s weird, I have never felt this emotion before.
I’ve always viewed my homosexuality as innate and random, so why feel pride in relation to it? I mean, I’m hardly bursting with pride over being right-handed or having hazel eyes.
I don’t know why but since taking the above survey, I’ve felt incredibly proud of my sexuality. I’ve also found myself becoming quite emotional thinking about my life, I’ve got tears in my eyes now as I write this. I’m sad for hiding who I am but I’m also happy because I no longer need to.
This thing which has hung over me, which has created such inner struggles and heartache, I now view as a gift. Being gay isn’t a burden, it’s a freedom. If you’d asked me yesterday if I would change with regards being gay, I’d have had to think about it. Ask me now and I’d say ‘NO WAY!‘
Thanks Ulla.
